Blog 004

I’m not a creative person and I find blogs hard.

The last week has been a bit of a slog for me, moving back up to university and getting used to the differences between my life here and my life at home has been a lot harder than it should have been and settling in has taken a while. I suppose the main reason for writing this, and hopefully kick-starting my blog again is to regain motivation. This last week I’ve spent a lot of time doing not very much with my free time and that’s not something I enjoy, I need something to motivate me again.

Last term I got into a routine of waking up early to write blog posts before breakfast, the feeling of satisfaction that gave me, of having completed a task before other people had even begun their day really gave me a great feeling. That’s been missing, I want to challenge myself again.

You’ve probably noticed by now that this blog post has very little structure, but then, why should it, this isn’t about conforming to a structure, this is about trying to get more creative. I’m a very organised person, I love structure, I love having things planned and sorted.

I like when other people recognise my achievements, I run, I like to run fast and I strive to get my times faster, I feel like I focus on impressing other people too much, I try too hard to compare myself to others through PBs or through achievements.

This blog is about escaping from that, pushing myself to be creative rather than conformist, pushing myself to improve myself and be a better all-around person, and frankly I couldn’t give a damn what readers think, I want to use this place to get away from all that, to focus on self-fulfillment and vent and make myself feel happy again, not that I’m unhappy, I just feel I could be happier.

I’m not a creative person and I think it’s about time I worked on that.